You can only look forwards

I failed two of my exams in the first semester of my first year at university. I then had to resit both papers, one of which I still failed.

I'm now on my second year, but the thought of having that F on my transcript still haunts me. I think about it every day. While reflecting, I realised that this is probably just something to do with my ego. I mean, the first year doesn't even count towards my final grade, so who cares? Well, it seems that I do.